Current mood:	tired
Current music:	Rusted Root - When i Woke

Untitled (hahaha)
I drove home today listening to my new rusted root cd and i was smiling the whole time. WHo knows why? maybe the awesome DVD and note i got from erica, or maybe the show i saw and all the happy people, or the time i spent today at barnes and noble, such cool people, or maybe just the new cd, but i couldn't stop. ANd i got home, got out of my car and just looked up. It was about 0 degrees out, but i still just sat there, spell bound by the stars. THey always do that to me. and i don't know how to explain the feeling that i get when i do see them, like i feel hollow. But in a good way. I feel like i'm being lifted up and i always have to take a deep breath... I wonder if anyone else feels that way?

I'm going to be 18 years old in 15 minutes. 18? what a fucking huge year. I can handle it though. what other choice do i have. I really don't want to go to college. I'm afraid, i won't lie. So damn afraid, i always want the comfort i have here. i never want it to end. Ugh. But as much as i don't want to, i'm totally ready too. Its weird. I just hope all goes well and i'm happy throughout. I hope i continue to pursue music, and i hope that someday i can join a band, even if its a cover one.

I'm just so damn glad to be alive.